It's kind of amazing how level of comfort can play into how we interact with the world around us. The lack of comfort motivates change, whether that change be mental, emotional, physical, procedural, or neurological.
The adjustment on February 3 was a bit of a surprise. I thought I was ready but, uhm, nah! That adjustment was painful and uncomfortable. The audiologist did exactly what I asked her to do: give me back my music! She warned me that it'd be uncomfortable. I didn't listen. I wanted my music back, darn it! Could I hear it before February 3rd? Yes. But it wasn't the same and it was interfering with my old ways of interacting with music by introducing sounds that were nonsensical in the context of music. My second favorite dance is the waltz and I had lost nearly all access to any waltz music that had a combination of low and high frequencies where the emphasis was on the highs. Guess which songs I was best able to dance to? The ones with lower frequencies. But then came all of this high frequency input.
What I hadn't realized, but what many people have tried to tell me over the years, is that high and low frequencies in music is "blended" into a whole. So, the fact that I could perceive high frequencies but not quite the low ones meant that what I could hear did not make sense! What a revelation!
Well, now I'm much more acclimatized to the lower frequencies to the point that they're almost comfortable. With that comfort comes more awareness of sounds...and the biggest difference I've noticed is in music. There are so many aspects to music now that I can readily play with. Tee hee! My dance partners are in trouble! 😁😂
There are upsides to being a CI recipient. I can use bluetooth to send sounds on my phone directly to my CI. What this means is that I can listen to music whenever I want, however I want, without needing to insert microphones. Ja-Woot! The downside to that? People don't realize I'm listening to music so it creates some funny situations. My boss comes in and starts talking to me and I have to ask him to hold while I turn off my music. Once off, I told him I was listening to music and had to turn it off. He proceeds to talk and then gets a slightly confused look for a split second and then he laughs and says, "Bluetooth to CI?". 😁
The other maybe less funny situation is sitting in a restaurant watching a Youtube video and listening via bluetooth. When I listen via bluetooth, the only sounds I get are the sounds that come in via bluetooth. So, unless someone does something to get my attention, or I notice them standing there, it may seem like I'm ignoring them. Hostile actions leave me confused and we're both uncomfortable. When they finally realize what's happening or if I get a chance to explain, all is good. But if not, I've lost an opportunity at a friend. C'est la vie!
And the journey continues. Thanks for listening! 🤟🏾💝🤟🏾